Rambling After the Month of Me

I'm always appreciative of the love I get for my Birth day/month but this year was one of the best. Very thank you for that.......those that forgot were few and far between so all is good.....How much more efficient would I be if I really stopped caring about those that don't really care about me?.......but in that case would I still be me?.......The online declarations are very nice now once they match the person I know in actual life we'll be making progress......I think because folk that reveal things to me know I hold secrets tightly even when they flip on me I wont air out their dirty laundry......I takes too much energy to really engage folk for the sake of "payback".....the flip side of that is that when I do pursue it it very very VERY ugly....So basically your girl was given it from him while getting it from you!?! Really?......Really?..........Really? Daaammmnnnnn homie.....balance the fond memories of the past with appreciation of the present......."How come we never hooked up"....ummmm cuz you weren't interested back then......now I look better you've gotten less attractive and I'm not interested.....hey it happens like that sometimes....Anyway, my late night eating habits are insane....Im not just taking snacks but have a full legit meal at 1am has happened quite often.....I need to beat my abs into submission......The inability to answer messaging in a timely fashion will continue to urk me.....until eternity.lol.......I find it amusing when I get under a persons skin for calling out there b.s.....not in the general sense but seeing folk hunger for attention and hitting them with the "I see what you're doing" type comment....then we wanna ignore me.......lol I see the gimmicks, the wack lyrics....lol the shits depressing, pathetic, please forget it.......ooh you got a "stalker" huh? Gotta change ya number you say? How about you take the damn location tracker off ya Tweets and stop "checking in" via facebook and 4square as well, Just a suggestion.....So we can worry about the going on of random ass sports player baby mamas and jumpoffs but no one "cares" about Diggy sticking up for his sister? Ooooooh ok just checking......Duration of friendship is not a get out of jail free card for any type of reckless conduct......I can still love ya yet fall back from you.....if its the best thing for me.....speaking of the best for me.....I think this yr is about to open a couple new chapters for me.....Hmmm just watched the end of Fast & Furious 2 Tokyo Drift....Is Tokyo really that animated? I mean it looks like living in a damn real life Anime. I'm curious to see that in person......Land of the Rising Sun meet Nightfall...that'd be fun.........be careful of long cleavage....gravity is playing a cruel trick on y'all. lol Random as hell but true regardless. lol I remember having to be creative to view porn these kids got it too easy now.........you ever have someone make you feel bad for being down for them or interested in what their about. It's like shit respect my appreciation of your hard work that shit ain't to be taken for granted......it's part of my nature to adapt to things around me to cause the least amount of friction. A another method I need to get more familiar with is just doing WHATEVER I want and then letting others adjust to me. If folk are that interested in being down then they'll make changes to their M.O like I do......Had a chat with a friend and we agreed that with encountering folk online in many cases the "Idea" of a person may e much greater then what they really are.......You're very much see the character/Alter Ego of a person vs the actual them. The degree of difference between the two varies but the online "superstar" is really just a regular person that takes good pix for is fairly good with words......just gotta live with it sometimes.....things we had but didn't want at the time....times we wanted that could never do ours......things we wanted that in hindsight you're glad you didn't get......Make em feel you.........it always appeals........Friday? Very uncomfy but for the Tribe, for the Boss.....I'll deal with it......You want to know whats awkward to me people with talent that dont how to properly apply it. What I mean is I see this guy w/ tons of graphic and artistic talent but uses it just to get pix of "models" sure why get $$$ when you can get jerk off material right?......lame.......but hey I worked under a guy when I promoted clubs that was the same way, but he was money hungry too bad combo......and kinda of pedophile-like.....yeah not good.....but that was another time, long removed from that world........